trusted with something that could ruin someone's life....interesting.

i woke up with a severe headache today. Wall Street and I both have migraines. i have been stressing a lot this week.
i am just not ready. i dont know if i ever will be. and i feel that they are ignoring the whole thing. i cannot be forced to make the next step. its too much pressure.

tomorrow will be one year since matthew died. a week later, everything else fell apart.
that gives me 8 days from now to make some decisions.