it has been one month since my surgery, and i have never felt better. there are even times i forget it happened until i see the incisions, which are still healing.
surgery day was long. i was scheduled at 2pm, and ended up getting pushed to 4 due to an emergency somewhere else.
the surgery was perfect, so i was told. the anesthesia, on the other hand... different story. it took my forever to wake up and when i did, i was having panic attacks. I had 3 that I remember, but once i was able to open my eyes and listen to the nurse, i got better.
the feeling that i couldnt move or talk or express or ask for my mom or say that i was in pain was overwhelming.
once i was release from the hospital, i stayed at my parents house for 2 days until i got tired of them/felt good enough to be alone.
everyday after i got a little better, it took a good week before i felt semi-normal and another week to realize i was not sore anymore. its been a month and i feel pretty good. i still get tired earlier at night that i used to, but that gets better with time and adding physical activity. i would like my long term stamina to rival that of a 5 year old. i know, its a lot to ask since i am much much older then a 5 year old.
i am going back to my second job soon, one week away. i am not looking forward to it, but i need the money. my bank account is suffering a recession in the worst way.
for now, i will continue to take my time and just be kind to myself.
